Завтрак

  • July 31, 2010 10:30 am

Наш типичный завтрак. Пишу чтобы самому прочитать в минуту депрессии, и порадоваться.

Пьем молотый кофе с молоком. Нюхаем эфирное масло черного перца. Закусываем творожной запеканкой с черникой, клюквой, шафраном и кардамоном. Творог, само-собой, самодельный. В качестве витаминов — водоросли хлореллы и бифидобактерии. На фоне играет пластинка Donovan, “Sunshine Superman“, 1966 год, моно. Ребенок спит. Кот ходит кругами. Танька гадает на гуще и видит белых целующихся пингвинов. Завтра летим в Сан-Франциско. Депрессия закончилась вчера.

“About Free Will” by Albert Einstein

  • June 20, 2010 8:56 pm

Consciousness: An Introduction

  • June 20, 2010 11:56 am

I’ve just started reading a book  Consciousness: An Introduction by Susan Blackmore. It’s an Oxford textbook so it presumably should have both good breadth of coverage and balanced/unbiased analysis of various opinions and theories. Having been written in 2000 — 2002 and published in 2003 it’s getting a little old now in 2010 but I couldn’t find anything newer that would match the sheer scope of a college textbook. My first experience with a Western textbook — Vision Science by Stephen Palmer published by  M.I.T. in 1999 — has been extremely positive. Even though I tend to dislike the quasi-unopinionated and sometimes overly authoritative tone implied in textbooks, the fact that they are designed to present tons of information in gradual, accessible and well-defined form blows away all other formats (collections of essays, single-theory-books, etc).

Since I think I understand C. well enough from my studies of Buddhism and from self-analysis, I’ve decided to document my understanding of C. as I read the book and before I get changed by the act of reading. I see this as a series of posts that summarize my opinion of various aspects of C. My post On nature of consciousness was a first such post, written before the book was delivered by mail, and this will be the second.

To reiterate main idea of the previous post, the common mistake people do when trying to grasp C. is naive separation of C. from the brain. As soon as you do that, you get into a position when you have to explain whether C. is self-sustaining or emerges from brain, and how does the causal relationship work between the two. After reading first few chapters of the book, I realized I mistakenly used word C. as a substitute for “mind” — a different albeit related concept. Indeed, it is the mind, not C. that is the software running on the hardware of the brain.

My bad, and I already see how the book can help me clarify my definitions and reconsider my assumptions. Instead, C. should be more specifically defined as the subjective experience of life. In this sense it is a very small subset of the mind machine, as most of the processing that goes on in the brain is in fact unconscious. Based on this clarified definition, my current understanding of nature of C. therefore needs to be  clarified:

In the functional model of the mind, there is a zone usually called Short-Term Memory (STM). This zone is used to hold the parsed output of the sensory input (predominantly visual), as well as the memories of the-parsed-output-of-the-sensory-input retrieved from the LTM. The fact that STM is used for both input and memory explains why you can’t clearly see something AND visualize something else at the same time. It is my understanding that C. is a feedback mechanism that uses the content of the STM to query LTM for loosely matching objects. This explains why you may not hear people calling your name when being deeply immersed in some interesting train of thoughts — there’s simply no available STM to process the audio input. This feedback mechanism is what makes inductive thinking possible and it is what creates the “I know what I’m thinking about now” effect. The level to which the ability to reflect on the content of your own STM is developed to a different degree in different people, hence the label “unconscious” we use to denote both babies and hooligans.

Another thought I had when reading introductory chapters of the book, is how people rush with analysis before they even have clear understanding of basic things like “entity”, “event”, “process”, “change”, “cause”, “effect” etc. This is where Technical Buddhism comes in handy since it starts with defining “objects” as aggregates of various material and subjective elements that may be included or excluded from consideration by changing the focus and scope, thereby changing the perceived object. This is known as dependent-co-arising, or the infamous Void or Emptiness that Religious Buddhism obsess about. In the book I see numerous examples of rat-holes that scientists and philosophers of the past have gotten in, due to their lousy understanding of Emptiness. When you understand how objects are created by the mind, and see the ephemeral nature of objects, you can no longer be fooled by the labels of words. What hides behind the label is no longer perceived as a solid and stable entity but rather as collection of disparate attributes temporarily aggregated under a single umbrella term.

It will be interesting to see how the book will challenge and change various aspects of this understanding.

Beacon of Certainty

  • June 15, 2010 9:43 pm

Mipham Rinpoche. Beacon of Certainty (the 7 questions about emptiness). Short summary & re-interpretation by Andrei Volkov.

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1. Q: How to explain emptiness: literally or figuratively?
A: Literally. Although the emptiness can be explained as the virtual existence, explaining that the snake virtually exists is confusing, since it still leaves the mind clinging to the entity called “snake”. There’s no snake [there's only the rope confused for the snake].

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2. Q: What are the two kinds of emptiness?

A: The two kinds of emptiness are emptiness of self and emptiness of phenomena.
To realize emptiness of I — aka personal emptiness — is to abandon instinctive apprehension of the aggregates as “I”. This liberates from emotional obscurations.
The other one is phenomenal emptiness — to realize it liberates from cognitive obscurations.

While working on the two kinds of emptiness it is important to understand that one also needs complete collection of internal and external causes and conditions.
Besides the emptiness, complete cultivation includes: accumulation of good causes, practice of various modes of reasoning, bodhicitta, the conduct based on the bodhicitta, dedication of merit to other beings, training in suchness etc.

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3. Q: Should meditation on emptiness be understood as meditation free of any apprehension (thoughts)?

A: This topic is often misunderstood. Buddha mind is free from apprehension as a result of the great understanding being so complete that it does not require apprehension, but lack of apprehension is not the cause for achieving Buddha mind. Sitting without thoughts is merely the state of a rock.

Other similar misunderstandings:
Some understand emptiness as “there’s nothing to attain, so there’s no need to work on awakening”.
Some say that they already understand personal emptiness — merely based on their inability to see/catch the mind or the I.

When realization of emptiness is explained as “not apprehending self/phenomena as either existing nor as non existing” it is not to be simply understood as apprehending self/phenomena as having dual appearance e.g. “while it looks like “I” exists but since it can’t be nailed down therefore at the same time it does not exist”; Furthermore — this “neither-not” should not be taken as just another concept for the mind. What is really meant is freedom from the apprehension of forms, deep understanding of relativity of appearances, beyond thought and simplistic expressions like exist/non-exist.

Alright, now that we’re done with mistakes let’s get to the correct meditation.

The antidote for apprehension of forms is modal apprehension of selfness (emptiness). First of all you need to understand what selfness means. Just imagining it is not enough. If you mistake rope for a snake, it does not help to think “there’s no snake”, but if you see how it does not exist, it disappears. Having understood selfness through analysis, meditate again and again on it, to uproot the habit of the apprehension of forms to the point of certainty.

But achieving certainty based on the apprehension of nonexistance of self and phenomena is not the ultimate result. Modal apprehension of nonexistence eventually induces the real emptiness –  certainty of truthlessness, great relatively w/o apprehension of either form, or emptiness. This emptiness is really worthy of your confidence. But whoever says this can be achieved in an instance and does not require long effort and gradual progress is an idiot.

In short, meditation on emptiness means: Study and reflect, analyze and observe, work in stages, grow accustomed to emptiness. Final meditation on emptiness means state of certainty of this emptiness (in the sense explained above), with nothing else apprehended.

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4. Q: So, in light of the above, is meditation an analytical activity or a trance?

A: Some say analysis obscures true nature of things, but others criticize trance, saying it is just like sleeping.
Actually, meditation needs both.

No analysis — no certainty. No certainty — no freedom from obscurations. Need to investigate the nature of things with hundred methods of reasoning. Cutting through emotional and cognitive obscurations, back to primordial purity, requires perfecting the view.

As for the trance aspect, this is the great bliss, clarity, awareness [of the right brain?] made visible through the removal of emotional and cognitive obscurations due to the non-apprehension of self, phenomena, emptiness, existence, non-existence, or any other form, it [non-apprehension] being caused in its turn by the certainty induced by the analysis.

Until certainty is born, one should induce it with exercises and analysis. When certainty is born, one should meditate in that state without analysis. While certainty exists, false conceptuality does not. If certainty is lost, then induce it again through analysis.

Alternate between analysis and certainty. Certainty of emptiness and the mind projecting the forms are mutually exclusive. Finally, when certainty arises by itself, w/o analysis, there’s no need to go through analysis again. When you see that rope is not a snake, there’s no sense in doing the analysis of the absence of the snake.

As you see, both apprehension and non-apprehension play their parts.

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5: Q: which of the two realities (truths) is more important: ultimate (“emptiness”) or deceptive (normal appearance)?
A: Some say emptiness is pure, while appearance is impure. Based on this they say that appearance should be abandoned. Others pretend that appearance is pure, without having understood the inseparability of appearance from emptiness. This is like perfuming a vase full of vomit.

The truth is: there are no two realities. Substance and non-substance are merely relative aspects describing same underlying essence. It is only for beginners they appear as negation and negandum.
In reality there’s no evil / no good in samsara or nirvana. Nirvana is not attained by abandoning samsara.

Even when the equality of the two realities is understood there’s a room for mistakes. Two typical mistakes are:
1) having understood correct view but not taking advantage of it, still seeing yourself as inferior or superior to somebody, or
2) having understood correct view but being still attached to old habits, to “practice equality” by eating meat, drinking alcohol, accumulating wealth etc.

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6: Q: What is the nature of an object commonly perceived by different observers?

A: Traditional materialistic philosophy, as well as people’s instinctive worldview presumes existence of external objects. Various idealistic philosophies presume the primacy of mind. Both fall into extremes.

The key is to understand that different people (and same people at different time) have different perceptions. Common “object” is merely an abstraction of these different perceptions. The perception of each observer (and of the same observer at different times) includes unique elements: observer’s perspective, context, preconceptions, obscurations, differences in the capabilities of sensory organs, as well as circumstances when the observation is made etc. The phenomena perceived by the observer cannot be considered in isolation of these other elements, since they may (and often do) radically change the perceived “object”. This is the sense in which the statement “subject is not separate from object” is made. From evolutionary perspective, the invention of “object” by the evolving mind is an obvious step since it allows the mind to easily attribute repeating patterns of its perceptions to the common identity of the object. However, the mind tends to assume that these entities are concrete and stable, while in reality they are merely temporary combinations of various factors. This obsession with quasi-stable entities creates all kinds of problems, the most infamous of which is the ego-centrism. As to the question whether there’s such thing as “valid” cognition it should be said that although all cognitions are constructed on the bases of perceptions of temporarily combined elements (so in this sense no one cognition is better than any other), however, since there’s a case of observer being aware or unaware of the compound nature of objects of perception, there’s a sense in which such cognitions can be called “valid” or “invalid” correspondingly.

This topic (inseparability of the basis of appearances from appearances themselves) is just one of many ways to approach the same fundamental truth. Other ways to reason about the nature of reality include:
- the absence of partiality and extremes
- the coalescence of form and emptiness
- objects (and self) nether existing nor non-existing
- nature of causation and freedom of will
- dependent co-arising
- prajna-paramita
etc.
but their all have the same taste and revolve around the same basic idea.

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7: Q: Does Madhyamika have a philosophical position or not?

A: Saying either that it has or that it doesn’t have a position would itself be a position. The fruition of the teaching is establishing of inseparability (coalescence) of the two realities (known as “appearance” and “emptiness”). The Great Gnosis of Equipoise, transcends the conceptual mind, therefore it transcends any position, including the notions of appearance, emptiness and even coalescence. However, this Gnosis should not be understood as something only existing theoretically and being impossible to be experienced. Instead, when the practitioner attains certainty free of doubt, this Gnosis appears to such practitioner as the ultimate meaning, beyond all positions, the state of awareness without an object, without any “this” or “that”.

On nature of consciousness

  • June 13, 2010 12:00 am

I don’t understand recent fuss about the nature of consciousness. Does it have physical substance? Can it cause? Is it an emergent property of brain?

Don’t people remember the levels of organization of life, as taught in high school? Physical. Chemical. Organic. Cellular.  Every next level is based on (implemented with) the elements present on the previous level. Yes, emergent properties of the higher level can be explained (deconstructed) in terms of what’s going on at the lower level, but they can not be adequately represented in lower-level’s terms by definition.

Similarly, consciousness does not need to have crude physical nature in order to be able to participate in what can be called “causal chains”. It’s a level of organization of life, so some of its inherent properties and limitations are best explained in terms of the previous layer (neurons, functional specialization of  brain areas etc.) while others can’t be boiled down to components without loosing their systemic properties.

Система и Умение

  • May 5, 2010 9:30 am

Добро и зло — примитивные категории, излишне упрощающие сложные отношения между людьми. Древние не пользовались этими понятиями. То что обычно переводится как добродетель или добродетельное действие — на самом деле называлось умение или умелое действие. Действительно, задолго до возникновения религии и философии люди открыли земледелие и ремесла. Умелый земледелец, кроме простейших “вскопал”, “посеял”, “полил”, “собрал” должен был понимать массу вторичных факторов влияющих на урожай и уметь учитывать их в своих действиях. Понятия и концепции ремесла, его первичные и вторичные факторы составляли Систему которую ученик (сапожника, пекаря, столяра и т.п), должен был выучить теоретически, освоить практически, и в конце концов довести до уровня интуитивного мастерства.

Соответственно и религия сначала появилась как ремесло. Ремесло жизни и человеческих отношений. Подразумевалось что обычный человек действует исходя из своего ограниченого умения, в особенности изходя из ограниченного понимания глубинных (тонких, далекоидущих) последствий своих действий. Так, обычный человек не понимает что  он является частью целого (общества, экосистемы и пр.) , и действует исходя из своей кратковременной (ситуативной) выгоды. Однако пренебрежение вторичными факторами ведет к неучтенным негативным последствиям. Умелый человек учитывает не только локальный контекст но и глобальный тоже, т.е. оптимизирует свои действия на долгосрочную выгоду.

Поэтому такие слова как Дао (в китайском) и Дхарма (в санскрите) изначально обозначали именно эту самую Систему.

Таким образом, имеем настоящее определение восточной религии: Система жизненых знаний и умений направленная на достижение долгосрочной выгоды для всего мира.

Кстати, Даосизм родился как стеб (критика) религии. Основная идея раннего Даосизма — человек есть лишь малая часть мира, и ему ли, с его ограниченным пониманием, пытаться достигнуть долгосрочной выгоды для всего мира.

Самообман

  • April 2, 2010 10:01 am

Сегодня бегал во сне. Бегу и думаю: наяву не бегаю, так хоть во сне побегаю. Ведь мне и сейчас бежать тяжело, хотя тела нет. Значит причина — в мозгах. Вот и буду бегать во снах, пока лень не изживу. А тогда можно будет и за физический бег приниматься. Эх и трудно бежать! Главное — не думать о финише, просто быть здесь-и-сейчас. Кажется, бегу по Рымарской. Да, вон он, Старый Оперный. Добегу до Советской, и хватит. О финише — ни-ни! Только б не забыть, что я делаю. Только б не забыть. Что я делаю?

Just a thought

  • March 30, 2010 11:16 am

Just a pot-induced thought I had during my trip home from NJ last weekend:

Everybody lives in his/her own reality corridor. Everybody’s internal world is so different from everybody else’s. Every person’s perspective and motives are shaped by his/her unique background and personal history. Every person comes to this world not really knowing what to expect, what’s right, what’s wrong and so on. For every person , this life, this world, is a mystery. He or she looks at what other people do, trying to make sense of it.

What we should do, as an evolving humanity, is acknowledge this obvious fact early in person’s life. The child-person should know, early on, that nobody really knows how to live. This will prevent many teenage tensions / issues too. Heck, this will even decrease anger and hatred and fear and conflicts in adults.

Hello other person. Life is a mystery.

Alright

  • March 22, 2010 1:50 pm

This unfinished post used to sit in my Drafts for two months before I decided to publish it. It’s a little presumptuous but the will is good.

Alright, here’s my teaching. Both in the sense of the steps I went through and what I recommend to people.

  1. Open your soul to magic. Don’t think “this is not how the world works”. Think “I wish I could live in fairy-tale”. Try drugs, books, adventures, or anything else that works for you.
  2. Pick up the concept of karma. Unfortunately Diagnostics of Karma is not available in English. Try Louise Hay or any of the Tibetan authors. Realize that karma is first and foremost your thinking, your intent.
  3. Pick up the concept of Spiritual Materialism. It’s important to get this as early as possible in your studies as an antidote for the obstacle of pride.
  4. Work on your karma for at least 5 years. Basically, you need to get through three major stages: 1) “It’s everybody else’s fault”, 2) “It must be my bad karma, I think I know what I did wrong” and 3) “I’m watching my mind every second of every minute”. Once you get to stage 3, keep going for the rest of your life :)
  5. Realize the virtual (conventional) nature of all objects. This is an extensive subject, try Zen, computer programming, cognitive sciences.
  6. Realize the mechanism of Intent (faith) as the reality-shaping force of the consciousness. Try Castaneda, try Reality Transurfing.
  7. Prajna-paramita and Dao.

Зангези

  • March 3, 2010 1:52 pm

Выходит что Зангези — это Чжуан-цзы:

Зангези:

Мне, бабочке, залетевшей
В комнату человеческой жизни,
Оставить почерк моей пыли
По суровым окнам, подписью узника,
На строгих стеклах рока.
Так скучны и серы
Обои из человеческой жизни!
Окон прозрачное «нет»!
Я уж стер свое синее зарево, точек узоры,
Мою голубую бурю крыла — первую свежесть.
Пыльца снята, крылья увяли и стали прозрачны и жестки.
Бьюсь я устало в окно человека.
Вечные числа стучатся оттуда
Призывом на родину, число зовут к числам вернуться.

2-й прохожий:

Бабочкой захотелось быть, вот чего хитрец захотел!

3-й прохожий:

Миляга! Какая он бабочка… баба он!